nothings ever promised tomorrow today

Justtt got my nails done by my mama- french tip. Tomorrow, I'm getting my senior pictures done. I'm kinda scared. What if they don't turn out good? :( Went shopping today with Kimmy. Got 4 skirts, a dress, a top. All but 1 is floral. I like floral. Also got a wholee bunch of necklaces + rings. Hopefully my pictures turn out good. I wanna take pictures in fields with Sophie. She better cooperate. I requested 2 weeks off for California and got my paychecks. I guess I forgot to pick up my first paycheck last month. Visited Kathy @ work. I guess I was supposed to work today but I checked the schedule on Wednesday and BJ put an updated version of the new one on Thursday and no one called me :( But it's alright since I got a lot of things done. Kimmy was supposed to get an application but I guess we don't have anymore or something. How unfortunate. Just been hanging out with Brandon mostly. He's nice most times. He gets Flamin' Hot Fries which is my new favorite ! It's soo addicting and spicy. My mouth is seriously on fire everytime I eat it.

I also saw Revolutionary Road a couple days ago. I was so confused. No idea what happened and why she decided to kill herself while she was pregnant. I think I'm gonna wikipedia that later and figure it out. I just know that she was crazy. It's weird how they both cheated on each other and are still together but she didn't love him ? or something. NO CLUE WHATSOEVER.

I also saw Paul Blart Mall Cop. Haha, it was funny. Paul is sucha funny guy. He's just so dedicated to his job which in my opinion isn't even that big. I really like those things he and other security people used to go through the mall. I knew Veck was a bad guy from the start. Just something about his vibe and aura.

Another movie I saw was Pink Panther 2. I love my boyfriend for getting movies :) I liked it a lot. Steve Martin is a very funny guy. "Hamburger" hahaha. The way he says it is hilarious. Brandon is really good at guessing what happens in movies and he guessed that the girl detective had something to do with all the stolen items, which happened to be true. She was really pretty though. I had a feeling that the real pink panther diamond was the one that Steve had in his box that he claimed was fake.

I also watched the Knowing with Brandon. It was sadd. I thought he would've saved everyone from the fire. But I like how Nicholas Cage got in touch with his dad after a while of not talking. I think I like sci-fi movies. Well some anyway. It's good that the kids got saved. Well only the "chosen" ones. It's kinda unfair because how do you get chosen? I guess no one really knows. I like mysteries because each event leads to something else and it takes a while to figure things out.

I took my mom to see My Sister's Keeper. Not gonna lie, but I got teary eyed at some parts. Not really when she died though because I was expecting it. The girl who had cancer and that guy Taylor, were so cute together. She looked amazing at the prom they had for cancer patients. It was sad when she called him over and over and left like 3 voicemails and her mom was sad because she was crying and then Cameron Diaz asked the nurse, and the nurse said that he died. :( It was bound to happen, but still.

I guess I watched lots of movies in the past couple weeks. I still want to watch Transformers 2, Hangover, and The Proposal. I'm almost done with Dawson's Creek season 2. After that, I think I'm gonna watch the first season of Heroes. Doubt I can finish it all by Thursday though which is when I need to return it to the library. This girl- Lights, can realllly sing. She's just SO cute and her music is gooood. It's my type anwayy. Loook her up, seriouslyy.
Work next Tuesday. First time I've worked in like a week. They don't like me obviously. I really hope they let me off for 2 weeks cause if not then, I need to find someone to cover for me. I'm not gonna skip out on California cause I gotta work.
Sophie got 2 of her shots a few days ago. She was supposed to feel calm and not up for much but she was hyper -_- I was like omg. I hope I can train her better cause right now, she's not listening very much. I want to teach her how to roll over and stuff, butttt she's a weee bit young. I kinda wanna do a training thing at either PetSmart or one of my mom's friends house, but tis pricey and it's only for 6 weeks, an hour a week. Not worth it at alll.
I started doing my summer homework for senior inquiry. We have to read The Autobiography of Malcolm X and write responses about 10 paragraphs. The book is pretty easy and intersting but it's harding finding a paragraph that has deep meaning since it's about his life and not like something fiction. I like it so far though. He had a very interesting life. I wish when I grow old and look back on my life, that it's interesting. So far, it's not very, but hopefully that will change. Dirk invited me to go a party of his today, buttt I didn't really wanna since I'm a hermit and don't do anythinggg. And I wanna get a good night's sleep for tomorrow. But I might go to the next one I guessss. Now I'm going to go do laundry and pick out outfits for my session tomorrow.

heal the world

Now that I have wireless internet, I can take my laptop anywhere. So I'm currently downstairs watching Dawson's Creek Season 2 and talking to my lovee. I work on Tuesday at 9 pm for midnight showing for Harry Potter. Omg, it was INSANE. I was stepping over people to get into where I needed to clock in and it was just a mad house. We had over 2000 people watching movies during that set. It was fun though with all the people. Saw Nicole, Niko, AJ, Cherwin, Kim and a bunch of others waiting to watch Harry Potter from like 7. Since Regal raised money for this charity and we beat our goal, we got to watch Harry Potter the day before it came out. It wasn't even that good. Haha. Definitely not worth watching at midnight. Worked with Mariah. Twas soo funny. This lady called us incompetent and said how her son should've gotten hired -_- yeahh riiight. I wish more people would dress up to see movies. Got off at around 2, but stayed and talked to Mariah and Kayla til around 3. Kayla is a very interesting girl. She's so badass, seriouslyy. So anywayyy, I got a puppy ! A pekingese shih tzu :) Sophie ! She's 2 months old and her birthday is the same day as minee. Seriously though, she's adorablee. I still need to train her on where to pee and stuff, but she's doing pretty good. She needs to be taught to do things on command. I wish I knew how to just read dogs' minds. Then I can know what she's thinking and how to get her to listen to me. I need to get a bunch of books or movies on how to train her. I got her on Sunday and after that we spent the rest of the day buying her all the necessities- cage, shampoo, brush, food/water bowl, food. We went everywheree- Target, Pet's Smart, and Wal-Mart. Isn't she just theeeeeeeeeee cutest thing ?


I got my mini session of senior pictures taken today. It's not really much. It's just to put on back of bussiness cards and promote her. I tried curling my hair. It turned out horrible. Well one side turned out pretty good, but the other was just dead. Definitely did not like it at alll. I wish I could do my hair all pretty and nice. I think I'm gonna try again tomorrow. Working tomorrow. Hopefully good people are working and it'll be funn. Brandon came over everyday this weeek. I love having him over :) Such good companyyy <3


I'm opening a checking account tomorrow ! At least I think that's what it is. Either that or savings. The one with a debit card. I'm excitedd. I want mine to be cuute. So I have a reallly annoying bed that squeaks alllll the time. I want a new one -_- A nice woooden one from Ikea possibly. I need to save up for a bunch of things- camera, bag, wallet. I thought there was more, but I guess not. Idk what kind of wallet to get. A nikon or a cannon. Idk which one is better. They both seem good to mee. I found a bag I like. Tis from Coach. I like it cause it's colorful. Idk what other brands have colorful bags. Idk which one i'll get yet, but probably the top one. Guess I'll see when I get to the storee. Or I can go to the outlet in Lincoln City and see if they have colorful ones for a good pricee. But first, I gotta save up.

back down

MY SORES ARE FINALLY FADING. :):):) Going back into society !
I am so happppy. I had a meeting at work today @ 8 in the morning -_- ridiculous. It was mostly about how to do our jobs better, stars of hope, + that we can't watch movies during our break anymore. Whoever made us lose that privilege is reallllllly gay. Now I don't know what I'm gonna do on my half. Working @ 5 tonight for the first time in 2 weeks. Kinda excitedd. But I've never closed before, kindaa scared about that. Don't really wanna do it cause I heard you have to clean a lot + it just sounds gross. Sooo, I just found out that I might get a dog ! Awhh. I hope I do, except I don't really wanna take care of it. But it'd be so cute dressing it up + taking it on walks. I need to think of a good name for it too. But I don't wanna get my hopes up or anything cause my mom isn't a big fan of dogs. Hung out with Brandon as usuall. He brought me raspberry + blueberry lemonade + blueberries. Twas sooo good. Another day, he made me pancakes cause he's just a really good boyfriendd. He also does my chores and washes the dishes cause he's my bitch, but idgaf. :) jk. i love him. soo much. I saw my 5bf, Julia for the first time in a couple weeks. She's leaving tomorrow to Ekone for a month ! :( I hope she comes by + visits me @ work todayy. Finished Prison Break Season 2, now onto Season 3. It's pretty good. Some episodes are kinda boring, but it's probably cause I get distracted. Spoiler- Sara dies ! :(( I didn't think she would ! I wanted Michael + her to be together. I'm on the episode where Michael has to get James Whistler out of the Sona prison or else LJ, Lincoln's son would die. Michael thinks Sara is still alive, so that's why he wants to get James out, or else I don't think he would really care.


I finished reading Revelation from the Private series last night. It was suchh a surprise what happened ! The whole book they were trying to figure out who killed Cheyenne, and Reed suspects all these people except for her own best friend, Sabine, who's actually the one that killed her because she supposedly ruined Ariana's life, who's her sister. It was just so shocking + I can't wait for the next book.

I think I'm going to read Adored from the It Girl series next. It looks pretty good. It's by Cecily Von Ziegesar who also wrote Gossip Girl.

Speaking of Gossip Girl, I wonder when that show is going to come back on. I forgot how the season ended. Oh right, Georgina was going to attend NYU and be Blair's roommate. This is going to be exciting. I was looking at this video on youtube and it said that Hilary Duff is going to be in Gossip Girl along with this other girl from Reba and Privileged. They don't look like Gossip Girl material, but you never knoww. I really don't want to spend most of my time watching Prison Break. My other options are Dawson's Creek + Freaks and Geeks. But since I probably won't get to watch Prison Break for a while if I don't finish it cause other people at the library want it, I'll probably have to.

pocket full of sunshine

Finally recovered from my illness, but still have sores on my face and my gums still hurt :( Neosporin and cocoa butter has to work on healing it fasterrrr.

Went to the dentist on Friday and was supposed to have my teeth cleaned, but since my gums were so puffy, the dentist advised me to come back in 2 weeks when everything was gooood. I was supposed to work at 1 today, but called in sick again because of my sores. Seriously, my sores have go to go. It's preventing me from everythinggg. July 4th was very normal. Brandon just came over like any other day. I don't think I saw a single firework that day. I watched a few episodes of the OC, but it was getting kinda boring. Probably will watch a lot more this week. I also saw Never Been Kissed which is a pretty old movie Drew Barrymore was in years ago. It's about an undercover reporter who's like 20 something and she has to go back to high school and pretend she's a student to get info on the students life. Her english teacher has a crush on her, but he can't since she's a student and she was supposed to do a story on their relationship, but she couldn't. She revealed that she was actually not 17 at the prom and then when her story published in the paper about her experience, the english teacher meets up with her in front of everyone at the championship baseball game. I thought he wasn't gonna make it cause the 5 minutes was up, but then he showed up. Tis a good love story.

Austin and I are friends again ! After weeks + weeks of not talking to each other, all because of a simple accidenttt. He, being the gentleman that he is, decides to comment me after ignored comments, IMs, and apologies. Back to being bff fists :) One day when Brandon came over, he made me this ginger tea that he said was supposed to be REALLLY good, but it was SO disugsting :( Since then, I've stuck to regular green tea with honey. Much better :) I made white cupcakes today. I think it's pretty delicious, but it's kinda hard to eat without chewing it. These sprinkles fell in the frosting and it became this weird vomit color, but since I didn't wanna waste it, I put it on the cupcakes. Haha. Hopefully Brandon likes it when he eats it later today. This is the latest I've stayed up in like 2 weeks. Finally healthy enough to go back to my old wayys. I started reading Wicked from the Private Little Liars series and it's pretty intense. Ian is on trial for killing these 4 girls' best friend, Ali, but of course he denies it. I don't think he killed them, but I don't know who did. The girls have been getting texts from someone who calls themself "A". But it's definitely not Ali, cause she's dead. In the last book, it was this girl Mona. But she's out of the picture. I don't really know what happened to her. I'm already on page 224. Can't wait for the next book, Killer. I'm such a nerd -_- There's not a lot of things to do around my house when you're stuck in here alll day except watch TV, read, and sleep. Haven't done too much eating since all I can really eat is soup and how many Chicken Noodle Soup cans is enough, seriously ?

death is catching up

After like 2 weeks or so, I'm STILL sick :( And since I used to get realllly hot and then really cold a couple hours later, I got these nasty dots on my face :(( Thank goodness my mom's going to get this cream thing that "renews my skin". Started getting those that one day I had to work at 815. Never ever ever wanna open again. I haven't left my house in like almost a week cause I look hideous and I hope I don't have to go to work anytime soon. I don't even want to go in to check my schedule. I don't think I'm gonna finish the Boy Meets World seasons. It takes too long to load online and I'm only at season 2. I finished Dawson's Creek season 1 though and tried watching the OC season 1 again, but I just got bored knowing what's going to happen. Watched She's All That again a couple days ago. Used to be my favorite movie. Sho sho sho cuute. Aren't they adorable together ?

So since I haven't really been out, I haven't been doing much. Brandon's been over a few times, but other then that, nothing exciting has happened. I got my grades. Pretty much just like I expected. Not too shabby. Haven't done anyy shopping in a while, which is perfectly fine with me. Don't really like it as much anymore. I was supposed to work a couple days ago, but I called in sick instead. I'm not sure if I had to find someone to fill in for me or not. And if I do, do I have to tell a manager ? Confusing stuff. I would be going to Hawaii with Emeline this weekend, but my mom decided to change her July 4th plans too late so now I can't. Instead, I'm going to Lincoln City for the day maybe with Julia, maybe not. Hopefully it'll be fun.

RIP Billy Mays
He was such a good infomercial guy. He could convince me to buy anythingg. He died cause he had an enlarged heart in his sleep. Quite a few people died in the past week. It's pretty sad.


Sigh. I need to get better, go back to work, make $9827384, then idk. Lately, I've been waking up around 7 cause the sun shines in my face every morning and it gets really hot and then I'm awake. Not good. I'm not going to be a senior rep for Studio Coburg anymore, but for Jean Photography instead since Coburg didn't respond to my email. Jean Photography is a better choice since it's also nice and in Hillsboro and not 2 hours away. I'm supposed to have my pictures taken this Sunday to pass out to promote her photography, but not with this face :( I'm so happy to have thee best boyfriend ever. Seriouslyyy. He helps me out so much- doing the dishes, helping me do the laundry, clean my room. :) I lovee him. A lot a lot a lot. <3